Now, this is going to make me look like the daughter from hell. But to be honest, I don't really care. Sorry all you innocent people out there, but: what the hell is that "father" of mine think he's bloody playing at?

First off, signing up for junk mail offers to my address in his name. Am I called John? I think not. Do I want to be on flipping "Dating Express" right now, getting new credit cards or see *ahem* videos online? Erm. No!

Second of all, winding up my little sister to the brink of her deteriorating two weeks ago. Saying that me not being around him "is breaking his heart"!" WTF? Excuse me, but he says this a) Just as I get good A Level results, b) when I've been cleared of a " mental disorder" he fabricated to a psychologist, and c) he's had the Child Benefit he's been claiming on my behalf taken off him, because I don't live with him anymore (meaning he's committed fraud). His heart's breaking? Oh, my heart bleeds! It really does!

He doesn't want me. He wants the credit now that I'm up on my feet and have something called "self esteem". He wants to say he's done all this; that I'm 'wonderful' because of him.

Then sending me e-mails with heartfelt stuff in, saying how much he loves me. This "father" kicked me out of the house; and would emotionally and physically try to destroy me. I told him (politely) to do one. I'm not playing ball with him. I'm just not going to put myself in a situation where I'm going to get hurt. It nearly killed me last time- literally.

I'm always going to be a bit screwed. Everyone knows that, but...sheesh! This is more than I can take!

Urghh! I think, now I've had my catfight/rant, I'm going to sleep now...half eight at night and I'm tired...urgh. I think I lost less hair during my A Levels. Seriously.

xxx